Still Waiting....

I'm 17DPO today. I've been having cramps for the past 5 days and my back has been hurting too. The heating pad has been my very good friend this week. I took several tests and they have all been negative. Today is my official test date, but I don't think I'm going to test. I checked my cervix yesterday and saw a spot of pink. So I'm guessing my period is not too far off.

I was thinking with my progesterone being so low, wouldn't it be beneficial for me to get on some progesterone supplements or cream during the 2 week wait? Well, when my period finally shows up I be calling back in to the doctor to get my 100mg of clomid. I'm sadly starting to lose hope for this cycle. My temperature is still pretty high.

Here's my chart for any of your familiar with charting:

But I guess it isn't over until my period shows...so here goes a test of my patience.

The results are in....

So I got my progesterone test results today. It was only 5.2, but then again the bloodwork was done on 3 DPO and they’re basing it off of it being 7 DPO since the dr assumed I ovulated on CD 14. There's always a chance. My chart is looking nice. I’ve had high temps for the past couple days. I'm hoping and praying for a miracle.

If I'm not pregnant this cycle my clomid will be upped to 100mg. I just hope I'm pregnant!

reflecting

I’ve pretty much gotten over the disappointment of not baby dancing this week. I still have a “good” rating on my chart. I’m feeling really excited and optimistic for this cycle. I’m starting to feel symptoms; I know they’re not in my head because some of them hurt! My nipples started getting sore yesterday and I’m still having mild cramping. I really hope it’s a good sign. I keep thinking it would be cool if they found out I was pregnant tomorrow, but with it only (possibly) being 3 DPO it’d be a miracle.

I’ve been reading on the boards at Fertility Friend and even set up my pregnancy chart just to see when I would possibly be due. I know I’m probably putting the cart in front of the horse, but I’m obsessive like that.

I did not start my novena to St. Gianna last night. I think I’m going to time it so by the time I get done with the novena it will be time to test and that will hopefully keep my mind of testing. I only have 10 HPTs and I don’t want to use them all up. It was really neat seeing a positive OPK. I like looking at 2 lines and would love to see 2 lines again in 2 weeks.

So begins the dreaded 2 week wait…..

We have some good news and some bad news.

The good news: Clomid has moved up my ovulation date. I believe I ovulated yesterday, September 11th.

The bad news: My husband and I haven’t baby-danced since Sunday so this cycle is a bust since we more than likely missed the egg.

I am incredibly frustrated right now. I know there is always a chance. I guess I will just hold on to that hope for now. Though, I am incredibly excited that I possibly ovulated on CD17. That’s the earliest I have ever ovulated! So the clomid does work.

I think this may be a good time to start a novena to St. Gianna. The last day of the novena will be the 20th, which will possibly be 9 DPO.

Novena To Obtain Graces Through Saint Gianna Beretta Molla

God, our Father, you have granted to your church the gift of Gianna Beretta Molla. In her youth she lovingly sought you and drew other young people to you, involving them, through apostolic witness and Catholic Action, in the care of the sick and aged, to help and comfort them.

We thank you for the gift of this young women, so deeply committed to you. Through her example grant us the grace to consecrate our life to your service, for the joy of our brothers and sisters.

Glory be …

Jesus, Redeemer of mankind, you called Saint Gianna to exercise the medical profession as a mission for the comfort of bodies and souls. In her suffering fellowmen and in the little ones, deprived of all support, she saw you.

We thank you for having revealed yourself to this servant as “one who serves” and who soothes the sufferings of men. Treasuring her example may we become generous Christians at the service of our brothers and sisters, especially those with whom you deign to share your Cross.

Glory be…

God, Sanctifying Spirit, who love the Church as your Bride, you poured into the heart of Saint Gianna a share of your Love so that she could radiate it in her family, and thus cooperate with you in the wonderful plan of creation, and give life to new children who could know and love you.

We thank you for this model wife and, through her encouraging witness, we beg you to grant to our families the serene and Christian presence of mothers committed to transform them into cenacles of faith and love, rich with generous activity and sanctifying service.

Glory be…

O God, Creator and lover of mankind, you were close to Saint Gianna when, affected by illness, she was in the painful dilemma of choosing between her own life and the life of the child whom she was carrying in herself, a gift long-awaited. Trusting you alone, and aware of your Commandment to respect human life, Gianna found the courage to do her duty as a mother and to say “yes” to the new life of her baby, generously sacrificing her own. Through the intercession of Mary, Mother of Jesus, and after the example of Gianna, inspire all mothers to welcome with love the sparkle of new life. Grant us the grace we are praying for …………. and the joy to find in Saint Gianna who, as a model spouse and mother, after the example of Christ, gave up her life for the life of others.

Hail Mary…

Getting back into the swing of things

This may be a repeat of what I had previously written, but I'll just recap.

I started my period on Aug 26th and I then started my first round of clomid on Aug 28 and took my last pill on Sept 1st. I am still waiting to ovulate, but my temperature took a dive today so I'm hoping I will actually ovulate today. Today is CD 14, so that would be a miracle. I've been having aches in my pelvic area for the past few days which I am hoping is ovulation pain. I have scheduled my CD 21 bloodwork to check my pergesterone levels. Unfortunately, CD 21 falls on a Saturday and the doctor's office is not open. So my appointment will be on Sept 14th at 8:30. I did a bit of research on what the levels should be post ovualation and found this website.

Follicular phase 0.2 - 1.4 ng/mL
Luteal phase 3.3 - 25.0 ng/mL
Mid-luteal phase 4.4 - 28.0 ng/mL
Postmenopausal less than 0.7 ng/mL

Pregnant
1st trimester 11.2 - 90.0 ng/mL
2nd trimester 25.6 - 89.4 ng/mL
3rd trimester 48.4 - 422.5 ng/mL

I ordered some ovulation predictor kits (OPKs) and home pregnanct tests (HPTs) on Sept 4th. I was really hoping they would be here by now. So maybe today I will get them. I am a POAS-aholic. (Pee On A Stick). This cycle seems to be taking forever. I keep staring at my chart in hopes that I will find some hidden revelation.

Awhile ago someone on one of my message boards that I frequent posted a link to the show "Life's Greatest Miracle" that aired on the Nova program on PBS. Just watching that made me just realize how much of a miracle it really is. So if you'd like to watch the show here is the link http://www.pbs.org/wgbh/nova/miracle/program.html. It's really a great program and I recommend everyone watch it.

Lack of Posts

Sorry for the lack of posts lately. I haven't been in a writing mood. I am still trying to get back to normal, or as close to normal as possible, from last week. It was really draining. I will hopefully be posting more this weekend or next week.



Until then, God Bless.

Back at it again

So I got my period on Sunday, the 26th. Today was my last clomid pill. So far no side effects. I have been taking it at night which I think helps, or so I've been told.

In other news, last week was rough. Thank you to those who expressed their sympathy, it was appreciated.